whether or not Your lips move

You speak to me

wheel January 27, 2009

Filed under: parenting,relationship with God,words — Ashley @ 1:19 pm

And the tongue is a flame of fire. It is full of wickedness that can ruin your whole life. It can turn the entire course of your life into a blazing flame of destruction, for it is set on fire by hell itself. (James 3:6, NLT)

And the tongue is a fire, a world of unrighteousness. The tongue is set among our members, staining the whole body, setting on fire the entire course of life, and set on fire by hell. (James 3:6, ESV)

And the tongue is a fire, the very world of iniquity; the tongue is set among our members as that which defiles the entire body, and sets on fire the course of our life, and is set on fire by hell. (James 3:6, NASB)

Just an interesting observation on a couple of words in this verse. The words translated “the entire course of your life” are Greek words meaning “wheel” (trochos) and “source, origin; used of birth, nativity; of that which follows origin, existence, life” (genesis).

As I reflect on this verse, it makes me think back to my childhood. My “wheel of origin.” Words were often tossed around carelessly and sometimes were aimed to cut to the heart, and not just by my family; I myself did (and sometimes still do) the same thing. One thing my husband and I have talked through together extensively is the importance of our using words for healing and building our future children. He has been absolutely instrumental in showing me the healthy way to use words, the calmer way, the more grace-full way. It can be so very easy to default to the “wheel” of living that was set forth for us by our families and friends growing up. I want our kids to start out with a healthy wheel, not one that is set on fire from the very start. I pray our future home will be one with Christ at the center of the wheel, one with His love spreading to every other part. We will seek to break the cycle of careless, harmful, abusive, unhealthy words that has existed in my life’s “wheel.”

Because our children will be the “tender grass” upon which our rainwords will fall.


Fun Fridays: uh, it’s actually Monday edition January 26, 2009

Filed under: fun,music — Ashley @ 1:29 pm

Sorry I slacked off Friday, everybody. It was just too busy of a day to post. I know, I know. Excuses, excuses.

In the meantime, help me make this incredible composer famous:

“Moogie X. Fashbaw”

Find some of his videos on YouTube; his screen name is jimlapbap if I’m not mistaken (and I can’t get on YouTube from work, so someone comment if it’s not right).

And that’s about all the time we have for today, kids. See you next time.


fun fridays: embarrassing story edition January 16, 2009

Filed under: embarrassing stories,fun — Ashley @ 2:42 pm

I have so many to choose from, but this is the one that I recently remembered and was laughing about.

Right after I graduated from college, I still lived in my college town. A group of us from one of the campus ministries were doing an original stage play– a couple of us wrote it, several of us acted in it, and so on. I had the lead female role. And the guy I had a crush on at the time had the lead male role.

There was this one scene where my character interacts with the Satan character. In between rehearsing scenes, the girl standing in as Satan and I were play fighting while about 10 other people were watching. I was in karate at the time so I was doing all my moves. Lots of high kicks and spins. I was totally gonna beat Satan up! Suddenly everyone’s eyes get HUGE and they start laughing hysterically. I’m like, what? Well, I look down, and one side of my jeans had torn completely down the inside seam and across the top pocket, exposing my leg and *ahem* undergarments for all to see.

Well, the lead guy had been playing along by “praying” for me to win in my battle against Satan, so he’d had his eyes closed the whole time and didn’t see anything! Too bad everyone else was watching the action instead of praying!!!


rainwords January 15, 2009

Filed under: memorization,relationship with God,words — Ashley @ 12:05 pm

My second memory verse for January:

“May my teaching drop as the rain, my speech distill as the dew, like gentle rain upon the tender grass, and like showers upon the herb.”
Deuteronomy 32:2 (ESV)

Reasons I chose this verse:

I’ve recently begun writing and teaching an “Intro to Bible 101” class at my house on Saturdays. I need my “teaching” to be refreshing to the precious people who have committed to journey along with me. There isn’t anything in the world I love more than helping another person have a WOW moment with the Word and its Author.

I also struggle a lot with anxiety over words I’ve spoken throughout the day and over-analyzing my interactions with people. I rarely ever say something that I need to apologize for (as far as I know– I really hope a person would approach me if I said something that hurt them), but continually fear I have. I am not from the south, and I fear that sometimes what I see as just speaking my mind may come across as rude here. And that is the farthest thing from what I want to be.

Neat things I see about this verse:

Our words are like water… I’m not a scientist, but I’ve heard that water is the most powerful substance on earth. Like, it can carve through rocks and stuff. It is essential for things to grow and to stay alive. I can see a lot of parallels with our words. They can slice through a person. They can drown. They can refresh. They can put out a fire. They can cultivate.

I’ve always wanted to be a poet-gardener.


fun friday: stuff i like edition January 9, 2009

Filed under: fun,stuff i like — Ashley @ 3:29 pm

Here are a few things I’ve liked this week.

1. Nail polish pens.

So far I’ve tried Sally Hansen’s Fast Dry Nail Color Pen in several colors and LOVE them. I’ve also tried one color of Nic’s Sticks by Opi. I’m not sure which one I like more… they are both a bit hard to find, at least here in Nashville. I’ve found the Nail Color Pens at Walgreens, but they’re a bit pricey by my standards. I’ve seen the Nic’s Sticks at Target, but they are always out of stock. At any rate, THESE THINGS ROCK. I love painting my nails fun colors (alternating red and green for Christmas is my favorite!) and the nail pens make it so much easier.

2. Quaker Oatmeal Squares.

If you have hereditary high cholesterol like I do, you probably eat a lot of oatmeal. Or maybe you don’t. My doctor told me to. Anyway, Quaker Oatmeal Squares are delicious and a more transportable, less mushy option for me. I’ve only ever tried the brown sugar variety, but they have two others: cinnamon and golden maple. I’ll have to try those and let you know what I think.

3. Google Documents.

I have a Mac at work and a PC at home, so Google Documents pretty much saves my life when I’m working on stuff I need to access in both places. I can work on something during my lunch break and pick right back up later at home. I mainly use the “document” option, but there are options to make presentations, spreadsheets, and forms as well. It’s similar to Microsoft Office stuff but really scaled down to just the basics. One really cool option is the sharing function. You can “share” the document by giving others permission to view it, or you can share it with the world. You can also save things as HTML,pdf, rtf, Microsoft Word, or other document file types.


fire and water January 8, 2009

Filed under: faith,grace,relationship with God,testing — Ashley @ 11:49 am

Okay, I’m not sure what it is, but I am just really bad at keeping up with this blog! I am going to try to be better, folks.

One thing I find challenging is knowing how much to “put out there,” y’know? How much do I really want a random stranger to know about me and my life? How much is too much? How much is too little? Am I prideful to think that people will actually benefit from my random musings?


I’m attempting the 1st and 15th Scripture Memory Challenge along with a couple thousand others over at the Living Proof Ministries blog (Beth Moore). In an effort to help me not only memorize and meditate, but also remind me to DO it, perhaps I can blog about the verse(s) I choose.

For January 1 I chose:

Zechariah 13:9 (NIV)

This third I will bring into the fire; I will refine them like silver and test them like gold. They will call on my name and I will answer them; I will say, “They are my people,” and they will say, “The LORD is our God.”

I chose this verse because I have really felt like I’m going through some “refining and testing” fires lately. Nothing big; in fact, most of it has been almost undetectable. Which I find interesting, because normally I take notice of the more catastrophic things in my life as refining and testing. The fires have come more in the form of my own nature, insecurities, issues, and hang-ups.

I also get excited about the first verse of this chapter:

Zechariah 13:1 (NIV)

On that day a fountain will be opened to the house of David and the inhabitants of Jerusalem, to cleanse them from sin and impurity.

Can we say messianic prophecy?!! Water sounds a little more soothing than fire…

So… this year I am praying that the fires will purify and the waters will cleanse. It doesn’t sound particularly fun, but I want God to see Jesus in me. And if that means a bit of pain and discomfort, then I must trust He knows how much this “gold” can take.

“Real gold fears no fire.”