whether or not Your lips move

You speak to me

broken by love July 24, 2008

Filed under: faith,love,relationship with God,sin — Ashley @ 6:31 pm

Just some thoughts I’ve had rolling around in my head lately… may have to expand on them further at a later time.

I’m not so sure that being “broken over my sin” is the most important thing in the world to be broken over.

Now, don’t hear me say that repentance and godly sorrow are not important. They absolutely are. Christ asks us to “repent and believe”– this was the crux of His message (Mark 1:15). Recognizing our inability to make ourselves acceptable is, among many other things, part of what makes grace so irresistible.

BUT… as followers of Christ– those who have repented (turned around from going the wrong direction) and decided to believe God (that He is who He says He is, can do what He says He can do, that we are who He says we are)– can perhaps the focus be shifted from being broken over our sin to instead being broken by love?

And maybe it’s really just another way to say exactly the same thing as being broken over our sin. But to me, being broken by love makes the focus GOD and not me and my actions. It turns my heart and mind to recounting the incredible things God has done in the past, in my life and in others’ lives. It makes me see  Jesus on the cross, reminds me He is so crazy about me that He wasn’t going to let anything stand between us. Reminds me there’s a big world out there with a lot of people in it who haven’t ever even heard a person say the words “I love you” to them, let alone realized the Creator of the Universe is telling them He loves them.

Maybe it sounds more appealing to me because it requires more faith. More trust. Simply being broken over my sin makes me sit around depressed and wallowing in what an awful worm I am. But, godly sorrow– allowing myself to be broken by love– leads me to repentance, forgiveness, and a huge sigh of relief. It humbles me. In light of God’s love, it’s hard not to see Him for who He is– and who He is, is more than I will ever comprehend. I choose to believe God when He says that in Christ, I’m the apple of His eye, His beloved, the Bride of Christ, and His child. This is a much greater motivation to obey Him; much greater than simply avoiding feeling guilty or beating myself up when I make a mistake.


Seek July 17, 2008

Filed under: relationship with God,seek — Ashley @ 2:28 pm

Now without faith it is impossible to please God, for the one who draws near to Him must believe that He exists and rewards those who seek Him.” (Hebrews 11:6, HCSB)

“And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him.” (Hebrews 11:6, NASB)

“But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.” (Hebrews 11:6, KJV)

“And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” (Hebrews 11:6, NIV)

“And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.” (Hebrews 11:6, ESV)

“So, you see, it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that there is a God and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him.” (Hebrews 11:6, NLT)


Strong’s definition (ekzeteo, #1567):

1) to seek out, search for

2) to seek out, i.e. investigate, scrutinize

3) to seek out for one’s self, beg, crave

4) to demand back, require


I love this word. Can you imagine? The creator of the universe wants us to seek Him out for ourselves. To search for Him. To investigate Him. To crave Him. To require Him.

And He promises to let us find Him when we seek Him. He is continually drawing us to Himself, anyway. Romancing us. No wonder it pleases Him when we look for Him.

And yet… there are times when I am begging to feel His presence. I know He’s there. He’s proven that to me too many times to count. But there’s just something about feeling His presence that makes everything else in the world seem a little less awful. And sometimes that “feeling” just isn’t always there. It leaves me with a choice: do I abandon what I know to be true, or do I simply believe Him?